My Story

• Like most women I found myself at point in life where I was feeling my best. I was at the weight I wanted, I still had mental faculties (most of them.. I mean, face it.. kids rob us of a few brain cells), I could stay up til midnight on a work night, my hair still still held a full ponytail and I hadn't learned to appreciate a nap yet. 

• My body and I had gone through a lot together. The stresses and heartaches of  high school, college..twice, two babies and the beginnings of a successful career doing what I had dreamed of doing since I was a little girl. 

• After all that we had been through together I woke up one morning in what seemed like overnight my body betrayed me. Despite me working out 3 days a week and being mindful of what I ate I gained weight and nothing I did brought it off. I got sick for 3 days where I lived off saltines and water and lost NOTHING!  By mid afternoon all I could dream of was taking a nap. I'd walk into a room and forget why I was there. I was crying at a Hallmark card commercial. I'd forget where I left my phone. Then my daughter walked in the room and asked me why my ponytail was so small. 

• I would go to doctor after doctor asking what was going on inside me and why I was feeling the way I was. All of them were were quick to say that it was probably due to hormones. At first this excited me.. there was an answer. But that quickly changed. Every time I would excitably ask "Great! Which ones and how do I fix it?" I was given a sorry filled shoulder shrug and an explanation that "that wasn't taught in medical school." These all were great guys who would've loved to help but as a guy they couldn't understand what I was feeling or know how to fix it.

• But, I was middle aged at that stage of my life and this was expected wasn't it? I should resign myself to the fact that from this point on I would never have my body back.. or mind for that matter. I should just sit back in my rocking chair and await the  arrival of my own private summer , say goodbye to my libido, stock up on kleenex and start looking for a new mattress because I was foreseeing me spending a lot of time on it.

• Then I was introduced to the magic of bio identical hormones. I'll be happy to report I have never had the pleasure of experiencing a hot flash which I am more than okay with. I got my libido back and I'm not a slave to my emotions and I dare you to ask me where my phone is...